Here after If we ask this generation of people which is the year you want to erase from the past??? The immediate answer would be year 2020 . Why??because Year 2020 has been a tough year to humanity as we were presented with an unexpected life challenge. The whole world came into a grinding halt because of a small virus corona and its impact COVID-19. It threw many challenges in front of us changing all our life styles, changing the concept of working, changing the way the health services are provide and many more. But for me this year was really different and more exciting and life changing things happened and I really feel blessed during the whole journey ..how?? come let’s see.
As I told For me personally this year was much more challenging and introspective. Why??not because I was infected with Corona but diagnosed with 3rd stage ovarian cancer which changed my whole life teaching biggest of the life lessons.
The journey with the Disease :
The word cancer itself brings a wave of fear as the impact of this disease is very huge.One has to have a strong will power and determination to live along with the treatment to defeat this. It not only gives challenges to the patient but also threw many many difficult situations at the family members. The physical changes, financial burdens, emotional and psychological things are some of the things we have to face when anybody is diagnosed with this disease. We had to have lots of patience and tolerance more than anything else the acceptance that we have this disease and there is no U-turn in this.
So listing all these things and I am still excited about the year 2020 and have no hard feelings about the year.. you must be feeling that I am going nuts.. :-)
No I am serious I don’t have any hard feelings about either the disease or the year 2020. Wondering ?? Because from the time disease was diagnosed till now I have not complained that why did it happened to me? What is my fault?? or any such kind of questions. All that me and my family did was accepted the fact that Yes!! I have cancer or she has cancer and we have to do all possible things to get it cured.
As soon as we decided in this line half the battle was won we were all ready to face all the challenges with more courage and strong will. This made my journey easier as my support system now is very strong and I can rely on them easily.
Though there was strong support system and best medical care I received, My first step towards the cure was a failure as the surgeons were unable to remove the cancer tumor. So now I was told that I will receive three cycles of chemo and then has to go for another surgery. These onco surgeries are usually complicated and they last for 10–12 hours. Now I have faced one and has to prepare myself to go through the other!! Now I understood that this whole journey of healing is a mind game if I stay strong and not let negative thoughts to conquer, that will be my strongest armor.
Then came the chemo part which took all my hair. (Which I loved dearly). Then came the fatigue and severe acidity attacks which made my food intake low .Now I am dependent upon people for my household work which I manged single handed earlier. This left with lots of free time in my hand.
Along with this CORONA hit the world adding more free time in my kitty as my husband and daughter at home and my husband took care of most of the work at home front. Now this was the challenging phase for me as I have to keep myself busy to keep the negative and unnecessary thoughts at bay.
I pulled out myself from my comfort zone and started trying all new things which I was earlier very very hesitant and doubtful to do. I started mandala drawing,(I never thought I would draw as I could not draw a circle properly) tried my hands on reviewing stories, learnt Tarot reading, tried learning German, and completed a course on NLP. I was postponing doing all these things with some or the other lame excuses!
I thank corona for this. Why ?? since there was corona I was able to get all the training online and also at my own pace. CORONA and the year 2020 showed me new avenues and new possibilities to live the life to fullest even with a disease in your body. isn’t this exciting? and challenging? and life changing experiences?
How this helped me in my Cancer treatment:
Since I kept myself occupied with various activities all my vitals were always within the range and my chemo went on without any interruption it also played a major role in reducing the chemo side effects. Which is really essential in the treatment.
Now one year down the lane I am still receiving Chemo as my consecutive surgeries were also failed and now chemo is the only option. But my zeal and enthusiasm is intact. As I am finding more things to learn and keep myself busy. Thanks to 2020 again for altering the options.
Signing of now with a hope that all my disease is cured one day and I will motivate and inspire people not to give up on cancer after all that is a mind game which we can win if we are persistent.